Mindscapes - Adolescent Expression | [Poem] Before This Life

How I miss my old life, 
When my soul felt happy and alive. 
I remember the moments I truly lived, 
Before this new life came to exist. 
I was always smiling, 
A smile so pure and true. 
Now I still keep smiling, 
But it's a mask for what I'm going through. 
No one sees how deeply it hurts, 
To be sick, to feel so different from the world. 
No one sees the pain I hide, 
Each day pretending to be fine. 
When will all of this come to an end? 
I just want a life where I don't have to pretend. 
Dialysis drains me, 
it makes me weak, it makes me sick, and sometimes it gives me pain. 
I'm just a teenager. 
Why did God choose me? 
Why can't I live my life freely and happily? 
I do miss my old life, 
When my soul felt happy and alive. 
I remember each and every moment i truly lived, 
Before this new life came to exist 

~ By Vicky ~